This basically sums it up. It's my third Mother's Day and I must say that for once, it was a semi-decent one. It didn't help that I had to work a 12 hour night shift last night and then go wait to pick up my mother's gift. (I got her an Edible Arrangement) So I got home about 9am and promptly went to sleep. Yeah, last night kicked my butt.
I was woken up at noon by my mom, wishing me a Happy Mother's Day. She gave me a gift bag with a Target gift card in it and a card (signed by my son) and asked if I wanted to go to the beach with them, but I was still tired, so I told her I wanted to sleep some more but I'd try to come out there. Yeah, didn't happen...but I have no one to blame but myself. By the time they got home, my little man was out for the count. So I really didn't get to spend the day with anyone and didn't get any dinner, but at least people remembered me this year.
All in all, I can't complain. My phone has been ringing off the hook from my friends all wishing me a Happy Mother's Day...some that I haven't talked to in almost forever either. It warms my heart because lately I've been feeling like I just exist and people can't even see me. At least I know I'm not as alone as I've been feeling lately.
But in all honesty, I think that's feeling is because things are about to rapidly change for me here soon. Along with this feeling of total isolation I have, I've also been feeling really excited...I can't explain why, but it's definitely there. I will also admit that I have baby fever. Every time I hold a baby, I get this pull in my belly that tells me I'm ready for number two.
Shoot, Thursday night at work, I adopted a baby for a half hour. It was an infant that we treated in the ER along with her older sister. Mom had to run to the pharmacy and asked if she could leave the baby there and then pick her up as she left to go home. No problem. So I got nominated to watch the baby. So we set her carrier on the floor and I was telling everyone to watch out for my baby and not step on her. Funny thing is, this kid honestly looked like she could have been my daughter. It threw a few people for a loop because they thought I really had brought my kid to work with me. LOL. The whole experience just made me want one of my own.
Unfortunately though, I have to remedy my marital situation first. Can't get pregnant while still married to a man that I have no earthly desire to see again...you know? Plus, I'm ultra traditional in the fact that I won't have a child unless I'm married to their father. So....you see my dilemma. Now, I have a man that's more than willing to give me at least 3 more children, but unfortunately, both of our hands are tied because I'm still legally married.
Anyway, I ramble. I'll be back tomorrow to update more, since the "exciting events" in my life are never ending.
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